Not beliving in...

Many things.

I'm an atheist. I think I've always been one. It's always been obvious to me that god isn't watching from the sky. And he doesn't talk to people. All of that.

The bible. Either you believe it, in toto, or you don't. You can't believe bits of it. You have to belive in creation, adam, eve, the talking snake, burning bushes, pillars of salt, arks and all that begetting. It's the rules.

You also have to belive it's the whole and only true word of either god or jesus, depends on where you start.

I can't. It's ludicrous to think that the words therein have remained the same, since writ. There are 'standardised' versions of course, but these can be shown to have been changed to fit current dogma.

I can't belive in miracles that have left no evidence. I can't belive that there was light in the east and the wide men from the east followed it, that's a fantastically awkward journey.

I can't belive that the bible is, as is, a self enclosed document, not plagiarised, or lifted from other sources or beliefs, I just can't.

But I can belive that the basic fundamentals of the teachings are collected wisdom. Don't kill someone, that seems reasonable. Don't steal from someone, pretty much dead on the money. Don't lie, again I'm down with that.

Can't agree with the first 4, about belive only in the one god, make no images, don't work on the weekend and don't use god or jesus as an epithet.  And #10 the bit about coveting, that just destroyed the consumer society, so no.

Pasta Rune Enoe kindly says this about the ten commandments and what you can expect if you break any of them, the pastor even questions the order they are given, he's a bit of a wag.  http://www.landoverbaptist.net/showthread.php?t=16785

Anyway for instance
Thou shalt have no other gods before me. , the punishment is "severe" which  means that you'll be up for Genocide. Entire cities with men, women, children and animals
must be killed. (Deuteronomy 2:33-34, Numbers 21:34-35, 1 Samuel 15:2-3, Joshua 6:21. Joshua 10:40) In some cases you can keep the girls alive for raping. (Numbers 31:15-18)

So that's why I can't belive in the whole thing, some of it is patent nonsense, fiction and shambolic. Am I worried about death? Aren't we all. And when I'm dead you'll remember me and then one day you won't.  And that's the bottom line.